So this was one that is definitely worth a write. a detailed loving one.
It was actually a very fine Monday afternoon as i was having my regular strong Coffee and logged in to twitter to check on him like everyday, reading a little bit of here and there he still wasn't around though i had a strong feeling he was silently but sticking to actual facts i just tweeted him that historical tweet i will forever be grateful for. Not expecting any reaction as usual but BANG..my notification board started blasting, i didn't notice at the beginning what was happening for i went to get more coffee when i came back the whole world was different! zillion Retweets&Favorits and people congratulating me..ohh what happened, could it be what in my wildest dreams i never thought it would happen? yeahhhhhhhhhhh freakin YESSS..ShahRukh Khan Retweeted Me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Million OMGs came out of my screaming voice, of course i turned to my original nature of birth jumping around and dancing those african dances one does after his toe gets banged to a door only it was my heart that got kissed by a strike of love.
How to describe that moment? i don't know. it was just like i stepped out of my skin for a while, like i was literally outta this noisy world. like i only see beauty, roses, laughs and everything seemed at its most pleasant state(considering the fact that i was standing in my winnie the pooh pajamas in the middle of my challenging to spot anything right away room, the whole universe fell into place at that second.
And of course i cried, a lot. tears tasted sweet. i hugged my arms(nobody was there to hug, so i managed) kept spinning like a 7 years old then sit again, then stood firmly running around in my chaotic mind alleys humming, no fuckin way this is real! so i reloaded the page to see if i am mistaken..but no i was not. SHAH RUKH KHAN RETWEETED ME. oh lalalalaaaaaa
after 4 years of constantly posing to his beautiful mind he did noticed i exist! ahhh so much for my little poor bruised heart that at once it got mended with the most perfect surgeant. and the fact that he doesn't know how much amazing his simple click was thrilled the hell outta my freaking senses. still in tears roll i kept staring at my handle beaming between his tweets, with his body hanging between the ring ropes as if hugging my calling eye. i was shaking and shivered, for a long while.
The idea is, it wasn't the fact that he is the megasuperstar of all times he is, nor that he has this 7million and counting fan follow but what thrilled me the most was that his eyes had layed onto my name, he actually read it to smile then pressed the Retweet icon. it felt like we hugged for a moment. like i met him and shook eyes. in a minute he managed to cross the million miles separating us and held my being into his space.
May be to some i am over reacting or exaggerating but i feel out of proper words to be able to describe how special his act of kindness made me feel. Those who know me well will understand how much it meant to me to pass by his mind, to ride on his thoughts for a second to dive into his mysterious head and intrigue his senses that too with a smile! i am the luckiest girl who ever existed. i feel most beautiful and it suddenly as if i have no more room for any pain. nor i will ever have, this moment i will save forever for when it gets darker on me and life shows off. i will always have this moment to lean on. this is how magical Shah Rukh Khan can get. He is not only the brilliant superstar and the extremely sexiest person on earth but he also holds the kindest heart. the warmest presence and he can make miracles come true with a smile and in my case he used a Retweet.
Dear ShahRukh, for 10 Fine years of my life i have been living with you in my mind every single moment. searching your news, watching your films as difficult as it was before you joined twitter i never tiered it was getting stronger every day this bond we share. its not love, i believe its far beyond the mere barriers of any language vocabulary. something words fall short to describe. something i hold on to be able to live. when you are happy i feel my heart dancing between my ribs, i smile like a kid and enjoy the question marks in the eyes of everyone around me when you are sad not only my eyes tear but my soul bleeds, i curse time&distance and wish i can crash them up and just be where you are to hug you, to hold your head and kiss your tears away those you trap behind a smile or a shy gaze. i feel how great you are when you don't even see it. i am one of billions who adore you, may be to some you are the superstar who make them happy within a shot and a song but to me you are the life i find myself most living. you are what a blessing of God means to me.
and before i get more emotional, i hope you know by now you are never alone and that there is someone across the borders would be more than happy to give you her life, serve you her own yummiest cooking recipes and write you every night a poem about how beautiful you make her feel.
P.S. I don't know if you will resume writing for dna, but please i am impatiently waiting for your article about Cancerians. Make my year Santa Rukh, July borns will forever be grateful and they are deliciously enchanting as you must have noticed.
And of course we can always keep our hopes highest and dream of how can your bodyguards will manage peeling me off you as my friend said when we meet, i suggest a self control course i will not be an easy chip :P
and since we still have to get more creative to invent a more appropriate word to express how i feel about you, will settle with love for now and only keep it stronger, deeper and most overwhelming. take care of your precious self Hotstuff,
love,
Abeer Mohamed
The Dreamer you Retweeted on Monday, 5.5.2014 and made her Happy for the rest of her life.
